JK

okay well just kidding im not completely gone from this... just trying something new

but if u know me.. i tend to just pause for the longest time from blogging when my life is going good or im not bored....

but i will be back eventually...

MOVED

MOVED TO TUMBLR BITCH! hahaha

www.jodielau.tumblr.com

2010 bitchess

NEW YEAR NEW START FUCK YA!





but fuckk... first day of 2010 was not a good start.. = =X





hope this year will be better then last =/

rain rain go away ............... but thanks for the car wash

FUCK THE FINALS FUCK THE FINALS FUCK THE FINALS

FUCK THE COLD FUCK THE COLD FUCK THE COLD

FUCK LOVE FUCK LOVE FUCK LOVE

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkk


ME NIPS ARE FREEZING OFF -__-

anonymous - bobby valentino

OVER COMING DEPRESSION SLOWLY.................






whats really fucking bothering me
-love
-finals
-money
-the cold
-registration
-essays
-grades
-EVERYTHING

"I thought I took one step, I took two back
I'm not even close this time and that's a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love? I just gotta find you babe"
anonymous - bobby valentino

sighhh..... ):

i saw him again today...

i know this is lame.. but i was waiting all day to meet up with him just so i can give him a kiss on the cheek and a hug.... we met up at our usual spot.. he was in such a hurry but looked really happy for some reason which made me smile a lot.. then he gave me my money and drove off quick.. i got really sad because i was hoping we could have talked for a bit cause i had so much to tell him... while i was sitting in my car alone i had remember i had something really important to tell him.. so i called him and texted him and finally he texted me back and said he will come outside of his house so i can tell him the good news.. i was soo excited to see him again even if we didnt see eachother for just a couple of minutes...when i told him the good news he was soo happy.. i havnt seen him that happy in sooo long and it made me really happpy... he gave me a tight hug and a kiss on the cheek then a kiss on the lips... i was soo happy about everything that i started to cry when i left...

i know that kiss didnt mean much just a friendly kiss but half of me wished he didnt do that and the other half was soo happy that he did... it had made me really confuse about everything.. but i know i shouldnt take it the wrong way.. i was waiting all weekend hoping that i would get a kiss from him and i really did.. but i was actually really sad about it at the end.. because knowing i wont be able to kiss him anymore made it extremely sad...

im really hoping not seeing him or talking to him for awhile is gonna help me get better... i still miss him soo much.. my heart still aches soo much thinking about him... because i still have love for him in my heart... well i really hope he will have a good time this winter break,,, im going to miss him a lot because i cant talk to him...

finally

things are slowly getting better for me.. im finally crying less..but doesnt mean ive stopped

Today i thought i would be really sad to see him again.. but going to watch new moon with him was pretty fun.... felt like old times.. but he didnt act like it... it was untill after the movies he put his arms around me cause i was cold gave me a tight hug and a piggy back ride back to the car.. it felt like old times and i really missed it... but i know things would never be that way anymore .. but felt really good to finally feel that again... it really made me happy.. but a bit sad knowing we will never be anymore... he said this would be the last time we'll see eachother for awhile cause he'll be gone on vacation.. maybe this would be good for me.. but i know im starting to get better because after a good long hug i didnt cry while driving away.. even though im crying just writing this blog.. i know things will eventually get better for me.. i wish him luck with everything and hope we will still be friends once he comes back from vacation.. because i feel as if hes gonna forget about me when he leaves to vacation because we will have no contact at all for a long time.. i really hope i will get even better sooner.. but im glad im FINALLY not so torn about things... as much as i miss him.. i understand things will change and we will never be as close anymore... i just hope he would never forget about me.. ill always love him even if we are just friends...

MARIO - HOW COULD YOU

FUCK THIS

WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING GET OVER HIM..
WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD TO LET HIM GO..
WHY DO I STILL LOVE HIM AFTER ALL THAT HES DONE..

i cant stand this anymore... i hate him so much but i still love him..IT FUCKING HURTS SO MUCH SEEING HIM KISS ANOTHER GIRL..


I WANT TO FUCKING MOVE ON ALREADY.. BUT ITS SO HARD..


will i ever find someone better...



FUCK ALL THIS! IM TIRED OF CRYING

a new beginning

This has been the best and worst year for me..

I am finally single and not happy about it..because someone that I actually love ripped my heart apart like it was nothing..I wont understand why he did the things he did..I had never endured this much pain from one person in my life..as much hate as I have towards him, I still have love for him..everyone is telling me to forget about him because he is not worth it but its too hard for me to do that..he was a great boyfriend and a great friend but since hes been gone he has become a stranger to me..even though he had made me feel the worst I have ever felt I will always have love for him....there is a lot more I would want to say, but I would like to keep that to myself..

i will always love you...


It is time for me to start a new beginning with all my close and true friends.
I just want to thank them for being there for me through the hardest times in my life..I don't think I would be here today without the help from all of them..

WOAH

MUSIC: daft punk - technologic

woahhhhhh so like i notice i havnt been on this or wrote in this in a longgg ass time.. i guess since school started i havnt really had the time to write in here... well so many things had happen between the last time i wrote in here and now.  theres to much to talk about.. but ill try to write in here more often >< 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO....

MUSIC: Buzzin - Shwayze

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO SYLVIA CHEN JULY 20 & KRISTY NGAI JULY 24

I LOVE DISNEYLAND 

Ehhh

MUSIC: American Boy - Estelle ft. kanye west

Ehhh sorry havnt really posted much lately.. been kinda busy.. i know.. surprisingly im busyy O_O.. ughh all because of fucking ACI and AP BIO online class... err this whole week i was stressing abou the tests for the online class.. cause i didnt even have the book to study.. so didnt even know what to do .. but i already ordered the book online.. but its been like 3 days fuckingg they said it will come today.. stupid bullshit amazon -__- .. but thanks to sharon,esther, and gina i was able to "get some help" on the quizzes :P... fuckingg ACI.. is soo tiring.. good thing i only have it 3 times a week.. but its in the morning.. so i just dont sleep the night before.. otherwise i wouldnt wake up for it... hopefully this shit will help me on SATs.. since im actually gonna try to do better.. - -

sooo like ive decided to find a job.. i applied for yogurtful.. but the interview is next week... hopefully they would hire me.. cause i really need this job.. cause i need money andd im kinda boredd - -X

NEXT WEEK.. going to disneyland for KRISTY and SYLVIAS birthday.. hopefullyy it wont be fucking hot and not a lot of people (but doubt that).. and hopefully CONNIE is able to go..... hahaha due to some reasonssssssssss :P 

well.. thats what ive been up to lately.. if any of you guys are curious... - -

Shows that ive been watching lately:

just finished

MUSIC: viva la vida - coldplay

JUST FINISHED SEX AND THE CITY.. its such a good movie :]




Beethoven - Love Letters of Great Men

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

waitinggg

MUSIC: my place - nelly

soooo lately i havnt been sleeping right and waking up right... -___- so ive been watching movies :P
right now im waiting for georgia rule to finish downloading -__-

so last night i was watching the movie never back down.. it seemed to be typical... but all the guys in the movie had nice packs :P .. haha the movie made me cried at one part.. the part where the black guy talks about his family.. so sad.. =/ after watching the movie it made me wanna fight -__- haha i think after i watch any movie it would make me wanna do what they do -_-

ahh fuck my summer is so fucking boring so far... even wen i go out.. seems soo boring since ive got nothing to do..=/ .. im soo bored that i decided to sign up for aci -_- i have no life.... i dont even know what to do about summer school now..  ahh fuckk 
 


 
"When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever"





graduation '08

FINALLY

MUSIC: party people - nelly ft. fergie

YAYY!! i finallyyy fixed my blog and am blogging again hehehe... so its been soo fucking long since i posted.. so im gonna try to post everyday... so i spent like i guess 3 hours fixing my blog and searching for music for the playlist and downloading music and etc. -___- ....
its 4 AM right now.. cant really sleep.. but still feel fuckinggg tiredd ... but tomorrow ill make up all my sleep :]

SOO today was pretty fun.. went to aci to talk to fuckinggg diane.. ive been soo fucking bored lately that i have to sign up for aci.. but im still not signed up for it yet -_- ... then went to megans to swim.. pretty fun.. havnt gone swimming in awhile and havnt hung out with my girls in awhile.. thennnn went to cherry on top.. thenn... went to kristyys then went eat and home.... soo.. im not exactly good at blogging so it may seem short and sound kinda weird.. -_____- well not sure what to write now... so i guess ill find some pics to put up =/

haha sylvia if you read this.. if you dont remember in the pool we were talking about that day we slept over at gingers and how we got a picture of you sleeping wellll here it is babe!

the days when we got money for cue..

JABBAWOCKKEZ BITCHH!

if i went to WHS i would be wearing this

WOAH GREEN .. CLASS OF '09 BITCH

haha was talking bout him today

black and innocent

blonde and stupid

we were talking about that day today... (i hope that made sense..)

back then when i use to care so much about hw.. that i wrote it on my hand!

jonathan lee (wow didnt know he went), ricky na(rickys hair changed!), john brandt(only non-asian), gore song(looks the same), david liu(doesnt wear white that much anymore), roy eun(only korean), david ding(what happened to him?), connie chung(was innocent), jodie lau(is that me?), megan houng(cute back then - so fly now),stacy chang(sexy hair there!), ginger hsu(so fierce now!), randy liu(doesnt he look like bill?)

wahahah SOPHMORE YEAR

wahhaa JUNIOR YEAR

.....sigh.....

MUSIC: 唯一 - 王力宏




TELL ME HOW TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS FOR YOU











___ days like these... makes me wonder how i feel about you


.....but deep down i guess i really do like you......

the feeling is unexplainable

MUSIC: anyone else but you - moldy peaches

YES... for now

HELLO i had officially updated - -

Lately ive been having these feelings that are very unexplainable.. you guys ask me what is wrong.. i really want to say it.. but there was no words to it.. but today this feeling has officially disappeared.. for some reason i just feel happy today and felt wanted in a way that is unexplainable hahaha 

currently while writing this .. i feel maybe too excited .. i have no reason why .. my stomach feels like there is butterflies.. and i jus cant stop smiling hahaha... so i guess the only way for me to update this is wen im emo haha cause then i will have more to say.. but i know you guys had waited long enough for me to just put up one post.. so this is why i am updating in a happy time hehehe  

conFUsed

YES or NO??
"do i really feel that way.. towards you?"

spring break is almost over .. i felt like i didnt do shit... why did last spring break seem so much longger?.. i wish we can just live free and be with the ones you love everyday... life is so short... why couldnt we live on forever...

This spring break was such a failure.. why...
ANSWER
cause time is my enemy


It bothers me how i cant tell you the truth.. cause i know it will hurt you so much.. but its best if you didnt know... ><

hrmm... ok all that shit was very random.. but i just wanted to say it "outloud.."

why is it so hard for me to find "the one" .. maybe i just need to start meeting new people.. i feel like i havnt met enough new people.. cause i have not found my "one".. how can i meet new people.. >< ... ahh i never even exactly have a real boyfriend.. i just wish to feel love by someone

PLEASE "THE ONE" COME MEET ME -0-


err.. i think my post does not make sense... theres so much i want to say but its so hard for me to say.. all i can do it try to express it in the stupidest way.. so just ignore my gayness...

SPRINGBREAK!

"How do you know if you like someone?"
^ Question asked by Ms. Jodie Lau of Diamond Bar.

Answer: When your heart gets butterflies whenever you talk to him (or her, but for here I'm going to use him), or is it butterflies in the stomache o_O? When you go online, you check if he's online and then patiently wait for him to im you, when you feel like .. okay fuck that i don't know

HELLO WORLD~ Joanne here! Jodie is in back of me dying my hair a very luscious, beautiful color called *Put color here*. But it'll probably turn out the wrong color..it always does. Spring break has finally started and we began it by....I don't remember. urmm. BUT! Yesterday, urrrrrm. We went to jessica's place and had a barbeque & Jodie stayed upstairs most of the time. The highlight was definitely the good food (not including those nasty smoothies used for shot games) & rock star? THEN.. after i went home, jodie went with james to andy's to win ten dollars and play with condoms. i cannot further explain because i was not there. readers, you can only imagine. ;) ;)
today, she "hung out" with her day. ^_^ is that not super cute?! then she called me at around 5. i was sitting in front of my computer wondering what to do after i realized my oven was broken and no delicious home made goodies would be coming out of it any time soon. (kidding) so i came over & we went to cvs for hair dye & shes' dying my hair while i hope that the color will come out right & then um she suggested i write in her blog so i am doing that.
she has pictures to update with! They will come later. .
i am having a very bad butt ache.
let's talk about other stuff!

dear jodie, this will make up for the letter you let me throw away.
i do not know when i like someone but then i think that once you realize you do, and you look back at yourself before you knew it, you'll be like what the! how did i not know, the signs were very clear. i know you want to like someone but are not sure if you do SO let me tell you this, i think that its easier to like someone you spend a lot of time with. or want to spend time with. you can make it happen maha! & then umm you can tell me & be brave..as you say. haha i hope that guy "appears" ... as you say. & it will be ballin! as i say. okay i dont think i would say that.. or i dont think that even makes sense. Ah you got it on my ear it was cold omg it smells so weird -_x
     i bet your cousins think its strange that there is music coming from uyour restroom. LOL i would think it is.i see that a lot of hair has fallen out..ew okay no one else better not read this. that sentence came out grammatically incorect.
i dont knwow at to write abouy. please talk to me =)
update pictures later =)
update more! its spring break you have plenty of time (= !
yay okay

bitch/beach

MUSIC: theres nothing - sean kingston


AHHHH VERY RANDOM DAY BUT FUN FUN FUN ^_^
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