the day after single-awareness day.. (aka valentines day)

MUSIC: Ray-j ft. yung berg - sexy can i
LOVE
well having no one to love kinda makes  a person extremely bored on valentines day so just decided to create one of these things.. never exactly done this before.. so yes i am a noob at this.. -___-

it feels ___ to get flowers                              
it feels ___ to be with someone
it feels ___ to be told i love youu
it feels ___ to be a couple in lovee
it feels ___ to be loved by someone

wish there was someone out there right for me that will fullfill the blanks for me...

But all couples are not that perfect or could actually fullfill those blanks.
Are they consider a real couple even though they can not fullfill the blanks?

TO the person that had always been there for me
I am sorry he treated you like this .. i did not think a boyfriend can be like that .. why didnt he bother to get you anything .. or say i love you... maybe hes just new at this.. i hope something good will happen and he will realize how much sorry he is that he did not do anything for you on V-Day. I do wish you the BEST.  And i dont blame you for what had happen i blame those who caused it, if you know what i mean.
FROM me


why do i always have to like the guys i know i would never be able to get... >w<
or am i just being naive :P





FRIENDS

How do you know if they are your real friends or not?

Do they really see you as a friend or just use you because they need someone there to use.  I just wish i could know what they are thinking on the inside.  Why are they always have to be so pissed off and not talk about it.  If they are not piss at you what do they have to act like they are.  How can someone give you attitude because you did nothing?  They say we are bestfriends but are we really?  They never ask me to go chill with them.  They never ask if i wanted to go with them.  They never treat me like im there.  Yes they can be a really good friend when they are nice to you.  But they are only nice because they use you.  Or is that just the way they are.  Why does it seem like they only treat me like this.  What did i do to deserve it?  Why cant they just tell me how they really feel so we dont have to waste each others time.  But i guess i can just suck it up since we only have a year left.  But honestly i have no idea how much longer i can take it.  I told myself so many times that i dont deserve to be treated like this.  But i dont know what it is, what ever it is, it keeps telling me to suck it up and ignore the way you guys treat me.  Maybe i am just thinking to much and its just me.  But i just need someone to tell me why i feel like this.  I havnt gotten into drama with you guys for awhile and it feel so good to not deal with the drama.  I had always thought it was me who started it, but honestly its you.  I just wish you can be in my shoes for one day and see how it feels to be ME!


THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE TREATED ME AS THEIR FRIENDS!





FAMILY

EVERYTHING IS GOOD! ^_^


still missing you.. RIP